Today is suppose to be Lona's birthday.
Well i could not type a coment for her in friendster as i dunno why i cant find her somehow. But LONA IF YOU ARE READING THIS BLOG HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!!! You are 1 year old older. Please be wise.

Anyway back to the point of today happenings. My dear is having dinner at fish & co with all her cousins and so call future cousins-in-laws. Well i have no rights to let her bring me. And also partly i have no money to eat fish & co. So less one outing with her again. Sigh, super sad now. its reaching 2wks and i could not see her. All i can do is call her on phone. I started to miss her so much. And feeling a bit too far from her. I cant bear it anymore. I want to cry badly. I cant meet her. I don't know whether shes feeling the same way as me. Some of the days i do miss her til i hallucinate that im with her.

I went for dinner with my mum. Dad wasnt around. As he has to take granny to the hospital for medical check ups. I talk to my mum about my dear. I told her what we are facing til today. My mum told me sumthing and ask me things like "thats shows that she don't feel the love from you". If she does then she will do all means to be with me. Well i can't tell everything about it here cause i have more deeper feelings. And i will only tell her next Saturday when we are going beach at East Coast.

My feelings is so deep with her. I trusted her with all my heart. I love her as much as anyone else. I do see her as my future wife. I do see that i'm the one whom i need to take good care of her when i grow older. I see things are meant to be loads of things. But hope it will happen and the dream will be true.

Anyway. Tml morning gt work. Sian. But after work. I gtg buy new phone. haha.