I had a horrible Chinese New Year(cny). For the pass 2 days i couldnt sleep well. Usually i slept at 12.30am-1.30am and normally wakes up at around 9.00am-9.30am. But this time round i woke up much later. Like lets see 10.30am.

Anyway is Saturday morning, I couldnt sleep well at all. It all started out in msn when i asked her, What love really means to her? Her replied was : "I don't know" i was so suprised she say that. 7 mths of relationship you don't know what is love? In the end she said :"to care, and be there for each other andshe could not think further" then after which i was talking on phone with my bby ger. I was telling her about her letting me into her family. It's been 7mths le. How long more she wants to drag it further? Without letting her parents know about it, it makes me in a difficult situation. I could not go out with her often. I could not be with her whenever i needed her most. I can't even go out with her on valentines day which i had plan it for months, she took it less than 1min to ruin it. All because she say this :"My mum off on valentines day". I was like Dammit. There goes another outing. A talk on the phone everyday or message everyday, doesnt bring the relationship closser, only remain the same or worste doesnt move the relationship instead of making it further. So many other restrictions. I really wished that she can tell me why is this happening to me?

WHY I ALWAYS WANTS HER TO TELL HER PARENTS ABOUT ME


All this while everyday i would miss her pitifully. Could not get out with her makes me feel even worste. And worste still, whenever i message her she would message me halfway she would suddenly stop replying me and would choose not to reply me till extremely long time. I was like, i couldnt accept the way she do this to me. I here feeling terribly love sick she wouldnt want to bother me much. I don't like it to be that way. Maybe it's my fault for not being so loving to her in conversation anymore? And maybe is my conversation is too boring for her anymore. I always wanted to revive this love matters. I would like to show her something on valentines day. Show her how much i feel for her on dedications in a building. But it was all wasted. My money my time my creation. Sorry if i make you feel bad bby. Is my blog, my feelings in it, and anyone reading it please do not make negative comments on her. Its my expression.

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Anyway i shall end here. My love for you is natural, no faking. I hope you feel the same way too. I don't wish to go on like this forever. I don't like the way i have been treated by you. I wish to be like a honeymoon like 1st 2nd mth. If you can help me solve this problem i promise myself to take good care of you. Hear from you soon. If you want me to feel this way forever then i'm so sorry.